I’m realizing, for the most part, that I find myself intensely boring.
I think I have that ‘nothing ever happens’ syndrome, where I’ve convinced myself that the progress of time is just one of those inexplicable things that you have no control over.
For so long, I’ve been letting things happen to me, instead of making things happen.
I am, in short, lazy.
I can’t really think of anything profound that has happened these last couple of days. I go to work, fix computers, come home, spend some time online… surfing sites, tempting myself with retail therapy, catching up with close friends… and then I sleep.
Wash, rinse, repeat.
I think, in large part, it’s part of the reason I started the list of things I want to do. To give me incentive to go out there and actually pursue some goals.
To make things happen, instead of wait for them.
So… I’ve decided to pick five things I want to work on this month. And I have to spend at least an hour working on them every day, with a progress report of how I’m doing at least every other day.
- Complete my author / book list. I have this done partially already… I’ve been accumulating the names of series and authors I’ve wanted to read for a while now. It’s time to put it in a readable list, though. On this site, in the projects area.
- Finish The Wayfarer Redemption and start a new book.
- Begin my dream journal. This is spurred on in part by the fact that I know I had a strange dream this morning. But already I can’t remember a thing about it.
- Make some progress on my French studies. I was doing good on this for a little while, but have let it slip to the wayside of late. I’m hoping that this site can be something that helps me in this regard. With every update to blog, I want to post a little something about what I’m learning. Even if it’s just a simple word or phrase. I expect this to be the hardest thing to keep doing. Learning a language isn’t an easy task, especially if you’re trying to teach yourself. It’s going to take a bit of determination and willpower on my part.
- Organize my work-out schedule, and stick to it. I’ve been trying to keep on a schedule of working out on my recent exercise equipment purchase, but this, too, has fallen to the wayside of the late. There’s no excuse really, other than that whole laziness thing. My goal is to work out a solid schedule, including what exercises I’ll be doing, how I’ll rotate in aerobic exercise (which I’m happier about doing now that it’s warming up a bit), and most of all, stick to it. This will all, of course, get posted here.
And that, honestly, should keep my hands full. I have a hard time with forming new habits. I know I need to step up to the plate, but all too often I just find myself falling down.
But honestly, I just need to stop making excuses for myself.
This blog helps, actually. It reminds me of how flimsy those excuses really are when there’s just a little bit of light shed on them. It would be all too easy just to crawl back into my hole if I didn’t make myself come out once and a while. It’s bad enough that there has been so long of a gap in my updates.
We’ll be close friends by the time this month is over, blog.